Le Temp

Anyone who’s done a modicum of living knows that one’s career trajectory is never how it was imagined when a child. I, for example, am not a veterinary pioneer or a superhero. I do not remove a thorn from a paw or save the day or live forever. I am a temp ? a sufficiently skilled worker-bee, a pink-collar nomad roaming from gig to gig toiling in the hazy twilight between unemployment and part-time, that giddy lunch hour between job and career. Or more simply, as I’ve taken to saying at cocktail parties, I am “between things.”

“You are what you do,” somebody’s mother whispered to me after I willfully mowed her child’s sand castle.

“Nothing nature wouldn’t do,” I said in my defense, to which the kid’s mom replied, “Yes, Sophie, but you’re not natural.”

My vocational identity has overtaken every aspect of my life. I do not rent (and likely will never own), I sublet. I am defined by another’s absence. Likewise, my relationships can hardly be called such, they’re more like value-added encounters. I am nobody’s girl. Like dating a man whose wife is away on business ? you know the arrangement is brief, but it’s not hard to daydream replacing her when her robe fits so well.

I put the “temp” in “temptress.”

I’m not a temp due to commitment phobias – I’m just a job slut. I bore easily and frequently need new stimulus, my fingers need new function keys upon which to play.

The agency that I registered with had a standardized skills assessment test, which in this age of point and click office solutions, was so simple I might as well be competing for placement with Koko the gorilla.

“Are you intimate with the Internet?” asked the hirsute young tester, who looked as if he were some order of humanoid escaped from Middle Earth and apparently averse to looking women in the eye.

His word choice bothered me. As punishment I was going to make him feel even more awkward than me.

“Sure, I’m intimate with the net – how many hands does your mouse need?”

He raised his palm as if surrendering.


“What kind of work are you hoping to do through our agency?”

“None, I’d rather watch daytime TV and eat Bonbons, but if I have to work I’d like a cool gig like, I don’t know, ‘Grim Reaper.'”

The boy blushed and penciled my answer onto my evaluation record.

“I’d be vicious, tapping my bony finger on the shoulders of ex-boyfriends, or better, their new girlfriends,” I said winking. “You got an ex-girlfriend?”

“Yes,” he replied sheepishly.

“So what happened to her?”

“She overdosed on prescription pain medication.”

I sat back in my seat and smoothed my skirt.

“Christ, I’m sorry kid,” I said as I inhaled sharply through my feigned smile, giving the fillings in my teeth a chill.

I put the “temp” in “contemptible.”

The kid booked me as an Internet Discussion Board Seeder for a movie marketing company. That is to say, I post observations meant to incite chat room discussions of movies I’ll never see. They call it “covertising.” They call us poster-children. I called in late my first day.

The corporate culture seemed engineered to mimic a hip TV sitcom, replete with bitchy eye-candy Marsha, my minx-like supervisor, poured into leather pants and sporting a hairdo the price of most car-payments. She used phrases like “grander scheme” and “big picture” as if the dawdling of a few Internet shills pertained to the ultimate shape of the universe.

She took an immediate dislike to me because our wardrobes hailed from the same phylum and species ? and because I could be her mid-series replacement (if I lost 10 pounds).

Marsha banished me to a desk that was a veritable lightning rod of the office’s post-dot-com feng shui. If I swiveled my chair around, all the negative energy being funneled through the building would go right up my skirt.

The “poster-child” I replaced had failed to return to work three days ago. There were suggestions that he had gone AWOL and started his own company. The day I arrived, however, his obituary turned up online, was printed, copied and discretely distributed throughout the office like a high school crib sheet.

“In a room where women come and goo, talking of Maya Angelou,” exhaled a balding, goateed wisp named Bruce. He felt that every office should have a witty gay personality, and finding none, straight Bruce took up the slack with fey musings he thought sufficed.

“Is it weird sitting there?”

“What, because of the feng shui?”

“No, because of the dead guy,” Bruce said.

I hadn’t thought about it – I was too busy crowing about the Yeah-Yeah Sisterhood as “death_vader_69” on a movie chat site.

Bruce had piqued my curiosity – a feat for both of us. I combed my desk for clues and unearthed a security badge. The photo looked as if it were a sample from a newly purchased picture frame. No one remembered his name, but surmised from the photo that his first could be Reed or Walker and that his last too could be Reed or Walker.

According to his pay stubs, he was paid more than me.

Laney, a billowy lummox who told everyone she met that she was a member of Wicca within the first five minutes, passed by my desk as if reading a hymn in some dreadfully choreographed parochial school pageant, her eyes cast upon the obit.

“Well, who was he? Didn’t anyone know him?” I asked. Bruce and Laney shook their heads. “He had to be more than three inches of news copy.”

“Let’s hope he was more than three inches, honey,” Bruce chided.
Laney, the social conscience of the group, finally bellowed, “I get his coffee cup,” and snatched it from my desk.

Then the rusty thought that one of us should Say Something creaked into the conversation. Mercifully, no one had anything to say.

“Let the man speak for himself,” Laney charged, then rifled the artifacts on Reed or Walker’s desk until she exhumed a Post-It penned in his hand and slapped it into mine. “You should read it. You’re at his desk.”
Laney managed to say this with such conviction that I could only sigh in protest.

It read simply: “God I hate these people!”

Laney and Bruce stood blinking for a moment.

“What a bitch!” Bruce spat.

Laney had finally mustered up some crocodile tears and blubbered, “And he was so cute.” Her head bowed, she stampeded into my shoulder, probably awaiting some order of sisterly embrace. It wasn’t going to happen. Instead, I tried to wax positive, the sage temp, a soothsayer, Christ at eight bucks an hour.

The only sophistry I could marshal, however, was, “Hey, at least you’re gainfully employed,” which I managed with as little of the irony implicit in my SoCal accent as possible.

Laney leaned her chapped lips to my ear and whispered plainly, “No, you see, we’re all temps.”

In the grander scheme, the bigger picture.


Thrice divorced, Dad is a collage of his various wives’ good intentions. His first wife, my mother, cultivated in him the ability to shrewdly market his talent as an artist, an investment that would eventually come to buoy her alimony when they divorced three year later.

His second wife, a summery coffee company heiress (whom Mom and I secretly called the bionic woman for her blond tresses and daffy, superhuman attitude ? “everything can be solved with a karate chop!”), contributed daily walks and fourth-course salads into his regimen.

His third wife, a self-proclaimed “carbophobiac” weaned him off baklava and contorted his “men aren’t supposed to be that flexible” attitude into some order of yogi consciousness. These women weren’t wives so much as my father’s conservators, each accomplishing an improvement, before leaving him to the next Mrs. Dover.

“Women ? worse, women like my wives ? always too competitive,” Dad would trumpet. “Especially when one man is the reason for their acquaintance. A game. It’s like he’s a maypole and the women keep colliding into each other as they try to rope him up.”

“And my mother?”

“She won didn’t she? She was the first to the finish,” he guffawed. “If I was smarter, she would’ve been the last.”

My father vintage baby-boomer that he is, his crow’s feet framed by curled grey locks, will probably live forever. And he can afford to even though he hasn’t painted in years. He’s made a fortune licensing his pop art monstrosities for novelty barbecue aprons, beach towels and calendars. The calendars are his favorite because any mention of them allow him to croak the old-hat “borrowed time” gag, which he managed to do again when I inquired about business at our annual Father’s Day brunch.

We always meet Downtown and he always pays – This year: San Antonio Winery at his request.

“I’m thinking of buying a sports car. A nineteen-seventy CS Coup? or the CS three point whatever, depending,” he anted.

“Dad. You’re ridiculous,” I cooed, then noticed that the hairs my arm became bristly. I smoothed them under the table. “Don’t you already have one?”

“It’s either a car or a wife and cars break down less often,” he quipped, his breezy demeanor having something of a wind chill factor on me, as I remembered, as I think did he, that he forewent my thirteenth birthday because he claimed to have bought such a car which left him “no travelling dough.” (“Then drive!” I remember my mother bellowing into the telephone the last hours of my twelfth year.)

My father deftly recovered our conversation.

“That is, with whatever I have after I lay out for this,” he said as he tossed me a brochure from the table. It was for an art auction slated for the afternoon in the winery’s capacious cellar and on it, amid the postage stamp renderings of drawings and paintings by erstwhile so-and-so’s, was a thumbnail of me as a junior high kid painted by my father.

It was a murky little portrait of pre-teen angst ? me, with virgin ear lobes, braces and a neon green shirt boasting a Charlie Brown zig-zag on it. The zig-zag was my father’s sole improvement on an otherwise unremarkable likeness of me.

He had never sold the painting per se, he explained, but he did use it to collateralize a loan from a friend, who in turn used it to collateralize another loan and so on and until someone apparently defaulted and the painting was set adrift a sea of private collections until washing up at the winery’s art auction.

“That brochure’s like a treasure map,” he said winking, the sentimentality of his agenda not lost on him. He invariably punctuated such statements with a quick swig from a glass ? the inevitable prelude to a series of self-recriminating statements about his poor-parenting sure to come. And as always, I offer abiding absolutions (“Hey, dad, you bought a car, of course you had to flake out during the worse year of my life”).

The ritual is tedious. Sometimes I wish he’d spice it up, tell me something like “I’m not really your father,” or “you have a twin in Europe.”
He kept his eyes downcast, absently surveying the menu as if searching for his next words.

“I should have paid less attention to my career and more attention to you,” he admitted dolefully. “You should have been my job.”

“Great, Dad. I wanted to be you daughter not your day-job.”
“You were still work,” punted, then added, “I hear.”

A waiter approached and whispered something in my father’s ear. Dad, nodded, tapped his watch and said, “Speaking of precious works of art.”

We wended from our seats to the auction. The cavernous room rumbled a bit as Dad entered ? people seemed to recognize him, a fact I quietly cherished. Men bowed their heads as Dad passed, not in deference, but almost ceremoniously, as if before a duel.

“Jackals,” he muttered as a slide of my portrait was projected on a screen obscuring a raff of wine barrels.

The opening bid was higher than one might expect, but my father’s eyes gleamed, glad that his work had appreciated and proud to pay the price. He bid. A pregnant moment passed in the dank air ? it seemed Dad may be the only person interested in the work.

“Going once, going twice?”

Dad turned to me and ribbed, “Three times a lady,” then our attention was directed by the auctioneer to a lithe woman inexplicably wearing a red-sequined mask. There was some confusion regarding her bid.

“What is the bid from the woman in the -” the balding auctioneer attempted to query but was cut-off as the disguised lady crisply doubled the opening bid.

“If that’s you’re goddamn mother I’m liable to?” he began, but let the thought trail as he bid instead ? revealing a vigilance he must have developed long after the custody battle for me.

The lady in the sequin mask grinned, folded her pocket book and exited to the gasps of dozens of onlookers.

My father looked pleased.

“Going once, going twice,” crowed the auctioneer ? then I raised my hand ? almost autonomically, the way one’s heart simply beats. I was a puppet operated by pre-adolescent self.

The auctioneer pointed at me as if raising the Holy Ghost in me at an old time revival.

My father turned in utter shock ? not admonishingly, but as if I just kicked the ball through the legs of the goalie.

He bid again.

Then I.

Then he. The volley didn’t end until the portrait’s price was a small fortune. Dad raised his eyebrow at me and allowed me the decisive blow. I nodded to the auctioneer.

“Going once, going twice ? Sold! To the young lady in grey.”

The crowd applauded. The slide changed. Another auction began. Dad groped for the exit.

Dad and I sipped a couple glasses of wine as a porter approached and asked,

“How does madam wish to complete her purchase?”

“My father will be paying for it.”

My father sighed and nodded to the gentleman.

“Where will you hang it?” I teased.

“In the garage.”


I had prepared my answer. I had practiced it in the mirror between applications of lip gloss. I knew when she asked exactly how I would respond: “Yes, yes, damn it. End of story.” And it would be a lie.

We did Mother’s Day because Mom claimed to have forgotten her birthday (at the behest of her publicist). Mother’s Day, however, she took as hers.

“That I’m a mother, I’m sure. You, Little Beast, made sure I’d sit up and notice ? epidural or no. We must remember that the etymological root of mother and martyr is the same,” Mom brayed, sounding very much like one of her own essays, the kind laden with balmy, wistful observations of some exotic locale that inevitably end with an equally embellished, if impossible, recipe.

“One wonders why Christ wasn’t a woman. Probably be too good at it. Healing the sick, fussing with runny noses,” she paused, re-lit a roach, and then purred. “Getting nailed by Romans. . ..”

A lump in her breast had recently landed her at an ashram where she learned to stave off cancer with visualization and marijuana. Though the lump was later found to be benign, she maintained a regimen of preventative care – whenever, wherever.

“That is illegal you know.”

“It’s outdoors. Nature. Ashes to ashes. We’re in L.A. Who gives a rat’s ass?”

“We’re at a restaurant.”

“It’s not a restaurant, dear, it’s a tapas bar.”

Mom had discovered tapas when writing for a gourmand magazine that eventually drifted into soft porn as its publishing mandate had become irretrievably contorted after a drunken office party. Later, she concentrated on writing books, chiding me for being single ? and dope.

Her lips whistled around the shrinking ember, which accentuated her lantern jaw, already set off by her short, sandy hair. She was a circus of scarves and shawls, and could have easily played Peter Pan if she weren’t so damn tall.

Diego, our waiter attempted a compliment while surreptitiously adding an ashtray to our tableware. “Your sister?” he asked me.

This did not impress my mother who thinks flattery should come in the form of designer tchotchkies from faraway friends – usually strapping gay men drenched in cologne, their hairless, bronzed feet naked in their sandals.

Moreover, at 30, I’m not about to accept the notion of sororal likeness to a woman twice my age. Sisters. Unlike some mother-daughter relationships, ours has not matured into a chatty friendship, a sibling-like bond ? we are not “best friends.” From the onset, it was evident that we could never model for, say, Madonna and Child. More like the Bitch and Bastard.

My twice-divorced father never came to this annual brunch. He was the kind of man who seemed to be perpetually stepping off a boat. He ate scores of rabbit, drank retsina and regaled young women with stories about art thieves and mythical college chums. He wore a beard trimmed with rococo intricacies and made impulsive purchases of such items as an ivory drafting pencil set, a steamer trunk that wouldn’t fit through the door and a schnauzer he named Winston. On my 16th birthday, he opened a bottle of wine with a samarai sword and all my girlfriends fell madly in love with him. His saddest moment, he says, was when he parked his vintage sportster “in the ocean.”

Though he loved my mother madly, he said she made him feel like an “old black and white photograph – bent corners and all.” I know what he meant, for any color that we could muster in our own lives would be absorbed by my mother’s dazzling hue. Neither of us is as brilliant as she; we are the dim stars in the familial constellation.

“Aren’t you going to eat,” Mom begged, a doleful eye upon the sprig of foliage that was my salad.

“I am eating. I’m on a diet.”

“That’s not a diet, that’s a hunger strike,” she reprimanded, then called, “Diego!”

“Yes, Madame?” our waiter asked breathlessly. He had applesauce strewn on his coat from a two year-old dominating another table.

“Get this girl a roast beef sandwich,” my mother ordered, then turned to me. “Really, you look damn near anemic. You need iron. You’ll get your period and pass out.”

“Stop being so controlling.”

“I’m not being controlling. I’m trying to feed you. Force feed you if necessary.”

“Would you like horseradish on the side, miss?” poor Diego lobbed into our fray.

I nodded listlessly, but Mom protested. “Don’t be such a plain Jane. Smother the damn thing. I want it to wake the dead.”

Mom took another hit off her joint and passed it to Diego who, somewhat taken aback, took a sheepish drag and returned, hunch-shouldered and giggling into the kitchen. Then she suddenly reached across the table and adjusted my sweater, ruining the incidental decolletage I had carefully engineered from a missing button and a push-up bra.

“Suggestive clothing works better, leaves something to the imagination ? and trust me, Doll, a man’s imagination is going to be better than anything under there.”

Her off-hand raillery was a professional trademark, garnered her mention in magazines and made her an interesting guest on National Public Radio, but stung worse than jellyfish.

“There you are. Five years old again. You’re one in a million, Sophie Dover, which in a city of 12 million such as Los Angeles means that there are 11 more of you,” she backhanded. “Don’t let those little bitches get your job ? or your man.”

She paused as if paying her respects to the inevitable romantic query to follow – a moment she relished as it made me visibly squirm. I took a bite of my sandwich to pass the time.

“Speaking of which,” her enveloping eyes locked on me, flickering almost conspiratorially, “Got a man?”

She had finally asked the question and as I was about to unreel my rehearsed answer, I was overwhelmed by a blaze of horseradish that had kindled in my nostrils and caused me to sputter.

“No. You know, not yet.”

“Sleeping around?”


“You oughta be.”

I had betrayed my imaginary boyfriend again, with the truth.

A placidity washed over my mother’s face. She looked suddenly like she did when I was a child. Once I went on assignment with her to the Serengeti ? I spied a pride of lions and noticed that my mother crossed her arms wrist to fist like a great lioness, irresistibly composed.

I had answered correctly.

Building an Audience

Live studio audiences aren’t just living laugh tracks–they’re a vital aspect of the entertainment industry in and of themselves.

When television producers need real-life guffaws they turn to a handful of Los Angeles-based audience-wrangling firms to put butts in seats, from those clad in action slacks Downtown, to the buns of steel at Venice Beach.

“Your path in life isn’t to become an audience coordinator. It kind of finds you,” says Chris Cavarozzi, owner and president of On Camera Audiences.

Like many audience coordinators, Cavarozzi cut his teeth, if not the rug, casting “American Bandstand” for Dick Clark Productions. Following a stint with MTV, he formed his own company seven years ago and now fills studios for the “Late, Late Show With Craig Kilborn,” “Mad TV,” various stand-up shows for Comedy Central and “Family Feud,” among dozens of others.

“We don’t do sitcoms that often, we concentrate on shows that have special needs,” says Cavarozzi, who wrangles the 150 or so beer-swilling male attendees for Comedy Central’s popular “The Man Show.” “It’s all guys, so we obviously market to men.

“Each show has different needs, so depending on the show the marketing is different. Some shows market themselves rather nicely because they’re popular–they don’t need services such as ours, though we will get called occasionally because of slow times of year.”

Like much of Southern California’s economy, the audience industry feeds on the lifeblood of tourists.

“Tourists are thrilled [to be in an audience] because they’ve never done it before, but we also get a lot of local people,” says Cash Oshman, owner and president of 22-year-old Audience Associates and its web-presence TVTix.com. “Some of the shows are so popular everyone wants to go.”

Oshman’s company books audiences for all of NBC’s shows, including juggernauts “The Tonight Show With Jay Leno” and “The Price Is Right.” He also casts extras (including 9,000 people for the upcoming Spiderman movie).

Oshman’s company also enjoys a relationship with Downtown’s L.A. Convention Center, wherein partners of otherwise disposed convention attendees and participants can conveniently add a live taping to their Los Angeles travel itinerary.

Though steady fan bases and free tickets certainly aid in generating audiences, the notion of supplying the 150 to 250 people needed for each taping of the 25 or more shows performed on a given day remains a daunting prospect.

“You’re looking at thousands of people having to show up at the studios everyday just to fill the seats,” says Oshman. “Most of the people that come in don’t even know the tickets are free and if they did they don’t know where to go get them. Even if they knew where to get them, by the time they get back from Disneyland and Universal Studios, they’re so exhausted they wouldn’t.”

Moreover, the downturn in tourism attributed to the recent terrorist attacks has also impacted studio audiences.

“The difficulty in filling audiences from around town has been heightened by Sept. 11,” says Cavarozzi. “Over the last five or six years, the nature of tourism in L.A. is not like it used to be.”

New Routes

As tourism recovers, the companies have bolstered their grass roots approaches to garnering audiences. Not only do they contract vendors to hand out tickets at tourist spots such as Hollywood and Highland and Venice Beach, they also work with groups such as parent-teacher associations, college organizations and fundraisers. Additionally, they have embraced the Information Age.

“What has really changed everything is the web,” says Oshman, who adds that his website has already brought in 60,000 audience members.

The web allows travelers to book a TV show taping as part of their Hollywood vacation. It also automates confirmations, cancellations and schedule changes.

While Oshman enthuses about the web, he bristles at the notion of flaky audience members. “It’s very upsetting when people don’t show up. It’s the rudest thing I can possibly imagine. We go out of our way to make this available, but some people don’t have reciprocal respect.”

One element that accompanies a live taping is a lot of waiting: At a recent episode of the “Late Late Show With Craig Kilborn,” audiences were herded into lines reminiscent of those at a theme park ride. Then they were cordially escorted to a waiting lobby and summarily stripped of cell phones (to be returned later) so as not to clutter the show’s soundtrack with errant ring tones. Finally the audience was shipped upstairs to the studio in a freight elevator and seated–then re-seated to better reflect the show’s demographic.

Eventually, a “warm-up comic” swaggered out, harassed the crowd and provided a brief treatise on how to be an exemplary live studio audience–which in a word means loud. Audience wranglers note that they sometimes generate enthusiasm by hiring actors to sit in the crowd.

“Some court shows, for example, want a very upscale look in the audience,” says Cavarozzi, “So the shows are cast with non-union extras to help fluff out the look.”

Given the casts of thousands that are annually paraded through the television studios’ aisles, one would assume the audience business is a boom industry. Like the audiences themselves, however, sometimes looks can be deceiving.

Says a wry Cavarozzi, “I’m sure the grosses are fairly high–the nets in the business are fairly low. It’s a lot of hustle for not a lot of profit margin, but it’s entertainment.”